Thursday 21 October 2021

Thoughts after reading the early part of Chapter VIII of Dreams of Red Chamber v.02

In the early part of Chapter VIII we were presented on how the order of the house is slowly not being observed. Regarding working hours, regarding respect to one's property allocation, regarding reverence to the hierarchy of the family and the line between casual and job responsibilities, it showed that they were becoming blurry. 

This got me thinking of what the real problem is, and there's a deeper layer that needs to be unfold. See, a human being wants to diversify, doing the same thing over and over again means increasing resistance to it. Life is about experiencing it, so even if one lived in a system that works, if it meant that he/she had to sacrifice the experience of life for the sake of it, there's going to be a "payment". The story (I only went as far as the early chapter VIII not further) presented signs of what's popular as "the increase in entropy", which is normal in every system. As leaders you would want to really understand why the original system works and create variations of it that's better, it is not an easy task and it requires experimentations and sacrifices (simulations, imagination).

Poor Pao Yu had everybody pinned the decline of the family on to him, being wild in mind and weird. For all its worth it is Pao Yu who has the hope of figuring it out being the way that he was.  

Monday 16 August 2021

My Poem Center v.09

She picked up the Axe

Eyes Opened Wide

The Pool of Blood, The Horror in her heart, The Horror her mind forbade

Shoutless, Actionless, Noiseless, 

Screaming inside, Shaking inside, 

Tremble!

She picked up the Axe

Eyes Opened Wide

The body on the ground, The Love, The Gone

The loud silence, The Groundless life

Nothingness, Meaninglessness, Timelessness, Euphoria

She picked up the Axe

Eyes Opened Wide

The Bear is still there as if it got nothing to worry about

Helpless me, Feelingless me, Missing me, 

In here Euphoria, In here Adventure, In here freedom

I can't help it, can't help it, I can't worry it

So I let it saw it, I let it watch, me and my smile

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Please wait Mr Righteous!

Please wait Mr Righteous!

Please wait for me

My life is in the brink, My dreams have long gone buried

Mr Righteous please look 

Look at the moments I'm living, the moments I cherish the most

Nothing but the last of the last 

The last of the last

Of the sparks of the butterflies

Mr Righteous please lean closer

heed nearer and smell

I'm nothing but dust

nothing but air

Why would I bother bathing?

Why would I am me, me as one who was known?

Who is that person? Do you remember? Who is he?

No one remembers him,

No one... 

Mr Rightous here, 

Here is my heart, 

Right here... 

See, you yourself know, such a meaningless act

Heh.. (breathing out)

The ruler were out, and it got nothing to measure

...

Mr Rightous so... please tell me, speak to me... answer me

Under what account, were these suspicions on me were real?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mr Righteous...

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Are you going to leave us?

It is ok dear, he could always leave anytime

Older brother, are you ever going to come back?

It is ok dear, he is not our family you shouldn't make it harder for him

Older brother, Older brother

...

"Oh little one don't be sad, don't cry"

I can't older brother I can't, why do you have to leave?

It is ok dear, he has his own life to live,

Be strong my dear, cause on us we must to rely

Be strong my dear, cause it is over now and you must now remember

Be strong my dear, you must not forget the important things

before him

...

Oh don't worry my dear friends, don't worry like that

We have been together for a while, times aren't just going to dissapear like that

What's with the gloom, What's with the worry, What's with the wrinkly foreheads

My parting wouldn't be the end

Little one look at me, look at me in the eye

You can do it


"Noooooooooo! No I caaaaaaan't!"


Shut up, look at me, you can...

A little by little, a little by little

Little one you would be able to

A little by little, a little by little

I'd always be there for you

Don't believe otherwise!

Don't believe the opposite!

Believe me... except when I was wrong, 

But Believe me... as you guys always do!

For as long as you guys remember me

As long as you believe what could be believed, from me

As long as it's still there for your sake

I'd always be with you always

------------------------------ Title: Moustached Dio  -------------------

(A fan fiction)

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Expected to lie (Inspired by K-Pop)


Climbing the stairs there were people around on camping

Looking down at the steps, steadily walking, running, jumping

Interesting conundrum exists on every levels

Some people realized that they are a part of the vowels


I don't mind the stare as I stared back at each other

Solutions to my problems could be found in one another

Learned to appreciate that there were tests in every encounter

I move along with the handrails to hold on from falling under


Managed to piece together, pieces scattered on the ground

With people looking around me like I came from the underground


Hey, seems like you and me are going to have a problem

Why don't we step aside lest we fall to the very bottom


Your fist flies as the butterfly

Your kicks permeates through the groin debilitates

While rolling rolling, I managed to pull along metallic thong

As I fell towards the direction I was supposed to go, on, on!


Pieces of shredded papers swirling right accross my face

The storm of meaninglessness doesn't quite enough to wait...

FOR.. 

it is time to go on picking pieces as I move along

Your exposing me of risks is my generation of a bomb


They looked at me, like I'm heading towards where I don't belong

As if there were rules in the field of watch along


Glimpse


Enough with the attention it is time to go on...

Bullets shot from all directions it's not like me is the only one


The breeze is fine there were serenity in the storm

I ran as if I tried to maximize what could go wrong

It hits hard oh the excitement of the storm

The moment the steps were curving was the time I proved wrong wrong 


They ran around in circles 

While I used the front door


I don't mind as long as I was let to go on

The cloud move along the path of "beautiful song"

I chose my own cause it is what is mine after all, along!


What is it there that seemed to be the pro...blem? (bon! bon!)

But it is funny it is ok safe me space I'll watch along (bon!)

Oh it's me that is the source of all the commotions?

Then follow me as we are fitting another one of those (bon!)


Angry, understanding, in opposition, but agreed

Concerned, disgusted, despise, convoluted with perplex

tion... confused with their position of me 

feeling swayed with their decision

some thought they've fallen in love

but let me tell you


I'm expected to lie (shooting with index finger, bam, bam, bam, bam, bam).  

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E equals mc square,


When you said, you've spent so much energy to make me understand 

When you said you've had enough


I see that you've decided to get fat,

It's your decision fair and square

I could only send the parting message


Anytime you want me I'll be there

As your personal trainer that I've become

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Masa depan ada di tangan Kebenaran

Di balik kebencian ada kebohongan

(di depan maupun di belakang)

Itulah alasan adanya kebencian

Kebohongan ada untuk dibenci

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Lie should lie to itself, 

For the sake of diversification, since lie is also a tool that could be used for something

For the sake of excellence, being able to lie to the lie itself must be an achievement that is not to be underestimated

For the sake of accuracy, lie should be familiar with the Truth in order to sustain its presence

For the sake of self love, since lie is its own product 

For the sake of expansion, lie is a territory to explore as well

...

Therefore false lie

Is something to get better at

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Why is this spirit of Slander so cocky

Strife, Fitnah, False Accusations

Just because you could cause concentration camps

Just because you could put innocent people in jail

Just because you could witchhunt

Mob Manslaughter, Put great countries into war,

Death Sentenced Jesus...

You always ponder and taunting wrong contexts to explainers

As if the spirit of contexts' work in the history of human evolution is nothing

weak, no place, no territories that matters to you?

This spirit is so cocky

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Fall tree, Fall tree

Pure are Fruits, Plankton and Osmosis

Far tree, Far tree

Where fights are life, and home is currency

Tree, Tree 

Rootless, Branches, 

Where it goes? To the peerless ocean

Somehow not alone, whereby peek everywhere its there